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St. Patrick's Confession
by Patrick (373-465 AD)
Introduction
by Tom Stewart
he patron sanint of Ireland is St. Patrick (373-465 AD), and long before man gave him the title of saint, God had already made him one. "Unto the Church of God which is at Corinth, to them that are sanctified in Christ Jesus, called to be Saints" (1Corinthians 1:2). Though the Church of Rome claims St. Patrick as its own, he is more appropriately owned by the "General Assembly and Church of the Firstborn, which are written in Heaven" (Hebrews 12:23), where "Christ is the Head of the Church: and He is the Saviour of the Body" (Ephesians 5:23).“Patrick was descended of a family which, for two generations at least, had publicly professed the Gospel. His father, Calpurnius, was a deacon, and his grandfather, Potitus, a presbyter in the Christian Church. He was well born, as the phrase is, seeing his father held the rank of 'decurio,' that is, was a member of the council of magistracy in a Roman provincial town. These facts we have under Patrick's own hand. In his autobiography... written but a little while before his death, and known as 'Patrick's Confession,' he says, 'I, Patrick, a sinner, had for my father, Calpurnius, a deacon, and for my grandfather, Potitus, a presbyter.' We should like to know what sort of woman his mother was, seeing mothers not infrequently live over again in their sons. Patrick nowhere mentions his mother, save under the general term of 'parents.' But judging from the robust and unselfish qualities of the son, we are inclined to infer that tradition speaks truth when it describes 'Conchessa,' the mother of the future apostle, as a woman of talent, who began early to instruct her son in divine things, and to instill into his heart the fear of that God whom his father and grandfather had served” --from St. Patrick: Apostle of Ireland ---New Window, A Ten Chapter Excerpt (Chapters 9-18) from "History of the Scottish Nation" by James A. Wylie ---New Window.
Historians believe that St. Patrick's missionary career in Ireland took place in the 5th Century, though they are uncertain of the date of his birth. "But the very hairs of your head are all numbered [by God]" (Matthew 10:30). Born in Britain (373 AD), Patrick was kidnapped into slavery at the age of sixteen to serve as a herdsman in Ireland for six years, where he turned in faith to the LORD Jesus Christ. "When He [God] slew them, then they sought Him: and they returned and enquired early after God" (Psalm 78:34). During the second half of the 4th Century, when Roman power was in decline in Italy and Britain, Irish raiding expeditions were common along the west coast of Britain, and unconverted Patrick was seized by such raiders. "I will go and return to My place, till they acknowledge their offence, and seek My face: in their affliction they will seek Me early" (Hosea 5:15). In a dream, he heard that the ship in which he was to make his escape was ready, so he fled his master and found his way back to Britain. "I being in the way, the LORD led me" (Genesis 24:27).
A passage from Patrick's spiritual biography, "Confessio" [Latin, Confession], tells of a dream that came to Patrick after he had escaped from Ireland and returned to Britain. One Victoricus appeared to Patrick, delivering him a letter entitled, "The Voice of the Hibernians". Hibernia is the Latin name for the island of Ireland. As Patrick read the letter, he seemed to hear a company of Irish beseeching him to return to Ireland. "9 And a vision appeared to Paul in the night; There stood a man of Macedonia, and prayed him, saying, Come over into Macedonia, and help us. 10 And after he had seen the vision, immediately we endeavoured to go into Macedonia, assuredly gathering that the LORD had called us for to preach the Gospel unto them" (Acts 16:9-10). Though Patrick doubted his fitness and educational preparation for such a task, he entered his missionary task to the Irish people (405 AD) with the zeal of an Apostle Paul. "19 For though I be free from all men, yet have I made myself servant unto all, that I might gain the more... 22 To the weak became I as weak, that I might gain the weak: I am made all things to all men, that I might by all means save some" (1Corinthians 9:19, 22). He met with great success in Ulster and Tara, though he faced the continual threat of martyrdom. Remember, he preached the Gospel where pagan idols were worshipped and Druid human sacrifice was still practiced. "For they themselves shew of us what manner of entering in we had unto you, and how ye turned to God from idols to serve the Living and True God" (1Thessalonians 1:9). His success with the Irish was matched by his trouble with his ecclesiastical superiors in Britain; but through it all, he humbly promoted the "Gospel of the Grace of God" (Acts 20:24). --Tom Stewart
St. Patrick's Confession
I, Patrick, a sinner, a most simple countryman,
the least of all the faithful and most contemptible to many, had for father the deacon
Calpurnius, son of the late Potitus, a presbyter, of the settlement of Bannaven Taburniae;
he had a small villa nearby where I was taken captive. I was at that time about sixteen
years of age. I did not, indeed, know the true God; and I was taken into captivity
in Ireland with many thousands of people, according to our deserts, for quite drawn
away from God, we did not keep his precepts, nor were we obedient to our presbyters
who used to remind us of our salvation. And the Lord brought down on us the fury
of his being and scattered us among many nations, even to the ends of the earth,
where I, in my smallness, am now to be found among foreigners.
And there the Lord opened my mind to an awareness of my unbelief, in order that,
even so late, I might remember my transgressions and turn with all my heart to the
Lord my God, who had regard for my insignificance and pitied my youth and ignorance.
And he watched over me before I knew him, and before I learned sense or even distinguished
between good and evil, and he protected me, and consoled me as a father would his
son.
Therefore, indeed, I cannot keep silent, nor would it be proper, so many favours
and graces has the Lord deigned to bestow on me in the land of my captivity. For
after chastisement from God, and recognizing him, our way to repay him is to exalt
him and confess his wonders before every nation under heaven:
For there is no other God, nor ever was before, nor shall be hereafter, but God the
Father, unbegotten and without beginning, in whom all things began, whose are all
things, as we have been taught; and his son Jesus Christ, who manifestly always existed
with the Father, before the beginning of time in the spirit with the Father, indescribably
begotten before all things, and all things visible and invisible were made by him.
He was made man, conquered death and was received into Heaven, to the Father who
gave him all power over every name in Heaven and on Earth and in Hell, so that every
tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord and God, in whom we believe. And
we look to his imminent coming again, the judge of the living and the dead, who will
render to each according to his deeds. And he poured out his Holy Spirit on us in
abundance, the gift and pledge of immortality, which makes the believers and the
obedient into sons of God and co-heirs of Christ who is revealed, and we worship
one God in the Trinity of holy name.
He himself said through the prophet: "Call upon me in the day of trouble; I
will deliver you, and you shall glorify me [Psalm 50:15]." And again: "It is right to reveal and publish
abroad the works of God."
I am imperfect in many things, nevertheless I want my brethren and kinsfolk to know
my nature so that they may be able to perceive my soul's desire.
I am not ignorant of what is said of my Lord in the Psalm: "You destroy those
who speak a lie [Psalm 5:6]."
And again: "A lying mouth deals death to the soul." And likewise the Lord
says in the Gospel: "On the day of judgment men shall render account for every
idle word they utter [Matthew 12:36]."
So it is that I should mightily fear, with terror and trembling, this judgment on
the day when no one shall be able to steal away or hide, but each and all shall render
account for even our smallest sins before the judgment seat of Christ the Lord.
And therefore for some time I have thought of writing, but I have hesitated until
now, for truly, I feared to expose myself to the criticism of men, because I have
not studied like others, who have assimilated both Law and the Holy Scriptures equally
and have never changed their idiom since their infancy, but instead were always learning
it increasingly, to perfection, while my idiom and language have been translated
into a foreign tongue. So it is easy to prove from a sample of my writing, my ability
in rhetoric and the extent of my preparation and knowledge, for as it is said, "wisdom
shall be recognized in speech, and in understanding, and in knowledge and in the
learning of truth."
But why make excuses close to the truth, especially when now I am presuming to try
to grasp in my old age what I did not gain in my youth because my sins prevented
me from making what I had read my own? But who will believe me, even though I should
say it again? A young man, almost a beardless boy, I was taken captive before I knew
what I should desire and what I should shun. So, consequently, today I feel ashamed
and I am mightily afraid to expose my ignorance, because, [I am not] eloquent, with
a small vocabulary, I am unable to explain as the spirit is eager to do and as the
soul and the mind indicate.
But had it been given to me as to others, in gratitude I should not have kept silent,
and if it should appear that I put myself before others, with my ignorance and my
slower speech, in truth, it is written: "The tongue of the stammerers shall
speak rapidly and distinctly [Isaiah 32:4]." How much harder must we try to attain it, we of
whom it is said: "You are an epistle of Christ in greeting to the ends of the
earth... written on your hearts, not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God
[2 Corinthians 3:3]."
And again, the Spirit witnessed that the rustic life was created by the Most High.
I am, then, first of all, countrified, an exile, evidently unlearned, one who is
not able to see into the future, but I know for certain, that before I was humbled
I was like a stone lying in deep mire, and he that is mighty came and in his mercy
raised me up and, indeed, lifted me high up and placed me on top of the wall. And
from there I ought to shout out in gratitude to the Lord for his great favours in
this world and for ever, that the mind of man cannot measure.
Therefore be amazed, you great and small who fear God, and you men of God, eloquent
speakers, listen and contemplate. Who was it summoned me, a fool, from the midst
of those who appear wise and learned in the law and powerful in rhetoric and in all
things? Me, truly wretched in this world, he inspired before others that I could
be-- if I would-- such a one who, with fear and reverence, and faithfully, without
complaint, would come to the people to whom the love of Christ brought me and gave
me in my lifetime, if I should be worthy, to serve them truly and with humility.
According, therefore, to the measure of one's faith in the Trinity, one should proceed
without holding back from danger to make known the gift of God and everlasting consolation,
to spread God's name everywhere with confidence and without fear, in order to leave
behind, after my death, foundations for my brethren and sons whom I baptized in the
Lord in so many thousands.
And I was not worthy, nor was I such that the Lord should grant his humble servant
this, that after hardships and such great trials, after captivity, after many years,
he should give me so much favour with these people, a thing which in the time of
my youth I neither hoped for nor imagined.
But after I reached Hibernia I used to pasture the flock each day and I used to pray
many times a day. More and more did the love of God, and my fear of him and faith
increase, and my spirit was moved so that in a day [I said] from one up to a hundred
prayers, and in the night a like number; besides I used to stay out in the forests
and on the mountain and I would wake up before daylight to pray in the snow, in icy
coldness, in rain, and I used to feel neither ill nor any slothfulness, because,
as I now see, the Spirit was burning in me at that time.
And it was there of course that one night in my sleep I heard a voice saying to me:
"You do well to fast: soon you will depart for your home country." And
again, a very short time later, there was a voice prophesying: "Behold, your
ship is ready." And it was not close by, but, as it happened, two hundred miles
away, where I had never been nor knew any person. And shortly thereafter I turned
about and fled from the man with whom I had been for six years, and I came, by the
power of God who directed my route to advantage (and I was afraid of nothing), until
I reached that ship.
And on the same day that I arrived, the ship was setting out from the place, and
I said that I had not the wherewithal to sail with them; and the steersman was displeased
and replied in anger, sharply: "By no means attempt to go with us." Hearing
this I left them to go to the hut where I was staying, and on the way I began to
pray, and before the prayer was finished I heard one of them shouting loudly after
me: "Come quickly because the men are calling you." And immediately I went
back to them and they started to say to me: "Come, because we are admitting
you out of good faith; make friendship with us in any way you wish." (And so,
on that day, I refused to suck the breasts of these men from fear of God, but nevertheless
I had hopes that they would come to faith in Jesus Christ, because they were barbarians.)
And for this I continued with them, and forthwith we put to sea.
And after three days we reached land, and for twenty-eight days journeyed through
uninhabited country, and the food ran out and hunger overtook them; and one day the
steersman began saying: "Why is it, Christian? You say your God is great and
all-powerful; then why can you not pray for us? For we may perish of hunger; it is
unlikely indeed that we shall ever see another human being." In fact, I said
to them, confidently: "Be converted by faith with all your heart to my Lord
God, because nothing is impossible for him, so that today he will send food for you
on your road, until you be sated, because everywhere he abounds." And with God's
help this came to pass; and behold, a herd of swine appeared on the road before our
eyes, and they slew many of them, and remained there for two nights, and they were
full of their meat and well restored, for many of them had fainted and would otherwise
have been left half dead by the wayside. And after this they gave the utmost thanks
to God, and I was esteemed in their eyes, and from that day they had food abundantly.
They discovered wild honey, besides, and they offered a share to me, and one of them
said: "It is a sacrifice." Thanks be to God, I tasted none of it.
The very same night while I was sleeping Satan attacked me violently, as I will remember
as long as I shall be in this body; and there fell on top of me as it were, a huge
rock, and not one of my members had any force. But from whence did it come to me,
ignorant in the spirit, to call upon Elijah? And meanwhile I saw the sun rising in
the sky, and while I was crying out "Elijah, Elijah" with all my might,
lo, the brilliance of that sun fell upon me and immediately shook me free of all
the weight; and I believe that I was aided by Christ my Lord, and that his Spirit
then was crying out for me, and I hope that it will be so in the day of my affliction,
just as it says in the Gospel: "In that hour", the Lord declares, "it
is not you who speaks but the Spirit of your Father speaking in you [Matthew 10:20]."
And a second time, after many years, I was taken captive. On the first night I accordingly
remained with my captors, but I heard a divine prophecy, saying to me: "You
shall be with them for two months." So it happened. On the sixtieth night the
Lord delivered me from their hands.
On the journey he provided us with food and fire and dry weather every day, until
on the tenth day we came upon people. As I mentioned above, we had journeyed through
an unpopulated country for twenty-eight days, and in fact the night that we came
upon people we had no food.
And after a few years I was again in Britain with my parents, and they welcomed me
as a son, and asked me, in faith, that after the great tribulations I had endured
I should not go any where else away from them. And, of course, there, in a vision
of the night, I saw a man whose name was Victoricus coming as if from Hibernia with
innumerable letters, and he gave me one of them, and I read the beginning of the
letter: "The Voice of the Hibernians", and as I was reading the beginning
of the letter I seemed at that moment to hear the voice of those who were beside
the forest of Foclut which is near the western sea, and they were crying as if with
one voice: "We beg you, holy youth, that you shall come and shall walk again
among us." And I was stung intensely in my heart so that I could read no more,
and thus I awoke. Thanks be to God, because after so many years the Lord bestowed
on them according to their cry.
And another night-- God knows, I do not, whether within me or beside me-- most words
which I heard and could not understand, except at the end of the speech it was represented
thus: "He who gave his life for you, he it is who speaks within you." And
thus I awoke, joyful.
And on a second occasion I saw Him praying within me, and I was as it were, inside
my own body , and I heard Him above me-- that is, above my inner self. He was praying
powerfully with sighs. And in the course of this I was astonished and wondering,
and I pondered who it could be who was praying within me. But at the end of the prayer
it was revealed to me that it was the Spirit. And so I awoke and remembered the Apostle's
words: "Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness; for we know not how to
pray as we ought. But the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with sighs too deep for
utterance [Romans 8:26]."
And again: "The Lord our advocate intercedes for us [Romans
8:27]."
And then I was attacked by a goodly number of my elders, who [mentioned] my sins
against my arduous episcopate. That day in particular I was mightily upset, and might
have fallen here and for ever; but the Lord generously spared me, a convert, and
an alien, for his name's sake, and he came powerfully to my assistance in that state
of being trampled down. I pray God that it shall not be held against them as a sin
that I fell truly into disgrace and scandal.
They brought up against me after thirty years an occurrence I had confessed before
becoming a deacon. On account of the anxiety in my sorrowful mind, I laid before
my close friend what I had perpetrated on a day-- nay, rather in one hour-- in my
boyhood because I was not yet proof against sin. God knows-- I do not-- whether I
was fifteen years old at the time, and I did not then believe in the living God,
nor had I believed, since my infancy; but I remained in death and unbelief until
I was severely rebuked, and in truth I was humbled every day by hunger and nakedness.
On the other hand, I did not proceed to Hibernia of my own accord until I was almost
giving up, but through this I was corrected by the Lord, and he prepared me so that
today I should be what was once far from me, in order that I should have the care
of-- or rather, I should be concerned for-- the salvation of others, when at that
time, still, I was only concerned for myself.
Therefore, on that day when I was rebuked, as I have just mentioned, I saw in a vision
of the night a document before my face, without honour, and meanwhile I heard a divine
prophecy, saying to me: "We have seen with displeasure the face of the chosen
one divested of name." And he did not say "You have seen with displeasure",
but "We have seen with displeasure" (as if He included Himself) . He said
then: "He who touches you, touches the apple of my eye."
For that reason, I give thanks to him who strengthened me in all things, so that
I should not be hindered in my setting out and also in my work which I was taught
by Christ my Lord; but more, from that state of affairs I felt, within me, no little
courage, and vindicated my faith before God and man.
Hence, therefore, I say boldly that my conscience is clear now and hereafter. God
is my witness that I have not lied in these words to you.
But rather, I am grieved for my very close friend, that because of him we deserved
to hear such a prophecy. The one to whom I entrusted my soul! And I found out from
a goodly number of brethren, before the case was made in my defense (in which I did
not take part, nor was I in Britain, nor was it pleaded by me), that in my absence
he would fight in my behalf. Besides, he told me himself: "See, the rank of
bishop goes to you"-- of which I was not worthy. But how did it come to him,
shortly afterwards, to disgrace me publicly, in the presence of all, good and bad,
because previously, gladly and of his own free will, he pardoned me, as did the Lord,
who is greater than all?
I have said enough. But all the same, I ought not to conceal God's gift which he
lavished on us in the land of my captivity, for then I sought him resolutely, and
I found him there, and he preserved me from all evils (as I believe) through the
in-dwelling of his Spirit, which works in me to this day. Again, boldly, but God
knows, if this had been made known to me by man, I might, perhaps, have kept silent
for the love of Christ.
Thus I give untiring thanks to God who kept me faithful in the day of my temptation,
so that today I may confidently offer my soul as a living sacrifice for Christ my
Lord; who am I, Lord? or, rather, what is my calling? that you appeared to me in
so great a divine quality, so that today among the barbarians I might constantly
exalt and magnify your name in whatever place I should be, and not only in good fortune,
but even in affliction? So that whatever befalls me, be it good or bad, I should
accept it equally, and give thanks always to God who revealed to me that I might
trust in him, implicitly and forever, and who will encourage me so that, ignorant,
and in the last days, I may dare to undertake so devout and so wonderful a work;
so that I might imitate one of those whom, once, long ago, the Lord already pre-ordained
to be heralds of his Gospel to witness to all peoples to the ends of the earth. So
are we seeing, and so it is fulfilled; behold, we are witnesses because the Gospel
has been preached as far as the places beyond which no man lives.
But it is tedious to describe in detail all my labours one by one. I will tell briefly
how our most holy God frequently delivered me, from slavery, and from the twelve
trials with which my soul was threatened, from man traps as well, and from things
I am not able to put into words. I would not cause offense to readers, but I have
God as witness who knew all things even before they happened, that, though I was
a poor ignorant waif, still he gave me abundant warnings through divine prophecy.
Whence came to me this wisdom which was not my own, I who neither knew the number
of days nor had knowledge of God? Whence came the so great and so healthful gift
of knowing or rather loving God, though I should lose homeland and family.
And many gifts were offered to me with weeping and tears, and I offended them, and
also went against the wishes of a good number of my elders; but guided by God, I
neither agreed with them nor deferred to them, not by my own grace but by God who
is victorious in me and withstands them all, so that I might come to the Irish people
to preach the Gospel and endure insults from unbelievers; that I might hear scandal
of my travels, and endure many persecutions to the extent of prison; and so that
I might give up my free birthright for the advantage of others, and if I should be
worthy, I am ready [to relinquish] even my life without hesitation; and most willingly
for His name. And I choose to devote it to him even unto death, if God grant it to
me.
I am greatly God's debtor, because he granted me so much grace, that through me many
people would be reborn in God, and soon after confirmed, and that clergy would be
ordained everywhere for them, the masses lately come to belief, whom the Lord drew
from the ends of the earth, just as he once promised through his prophets: "To
you shall the nations come from the ends of the earth, and shall say, Our fathers
have inherited naught but lies, worthless things in which there is no profit [Jeremiah 16:19]." And
again: "I have set you to be a light for the Gentiles that you may bring salvation
to the uttermost ends of the earth [Acts 13:47]."
And I wish to wait then for his promise which is never unfulfilled, just as it is
promised in the Gospel: "Many shall come from east and west and shall sit at
table with Abraham and Isaac and Jacob [Matthew 8:11]." Just as we believe that believers will come from
all the world.
So for that reason one should, in fact, fish well and diligently, just as the Lord
foretells and teaches, saying, "Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men
[Matthew 4:19],"
and again through the prophets: "Behold, I am sending forth many fishers and
hunters, says the Lord [Jeremiah 16:16]," et cetera. So it behooved us to spread our nets,
that a vast multitude and throng might be caught for God, and so there might be clergy
everywhere who baptized and exhorted a needy and desirous people. Just as the Lord
says in the Gospel, admonishing and instructing: "Go therefore and make disciples
of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the
Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you; and lo, I am
with you always to the end of time [Matthew 28:19]." And again he says: "Go forth into the world
and preach the Gospel to all creation. He who believes and is baptized shall be saved;
but he who does not believe shall be condemned [Mark
16:15]." And again: "This Gospel
of the Kingdom shall be preached throughout the whole world as a witness to all nations;
and then the end of the world shall come [Matthew 24:14]." And likewise the Lord foretells through the prophet:
"And it shall come to pass in the last days (sayeth the Lord) that I will pour
out my spirit upon all flesh, and your sons and daughters shall prophesy, and your
young men shall see visions and your old men shall dream dreams; yea, and on my menservants
and my maidservants in those days I will pour out my Spirit and they shall prophesy
[Joel 2:28]."
And in Hosea he says: "Those who are not my people I will call my people, and
those not beloved I will call my beloved, and in the very place where it was said
to them, You are not my people, they will be called Sons of the living God [Hosea 1:10]."
So, how is it that in Hibernia, where they never had any knowledge of God but, always,
until now, cherished idols and unclean things, they are lately become a people of
the Lord, and are called children of God; the sons of the Irish and the daughters
of the chieftains are to be seen as monks and virgins of Christ.
And there was, besides, a most beautiful, blessed, native-born noble Irish woman
of adult age whom I baptized; and a few days later she had reason to come to us to
intimate that she had received a prophecy from a divine messenger [who] advised her
that she should become a virgin of Christ and she would draw nearer to God. Thanks
be to God, six days from then, opportunely and most eagerly, she took the course
that all virgins of God take, not with their fathers' consent but enduring the persecutions
and deceitful hindrances of their parents. Notwithstanding that, their number increases,
(we do not know the number of them that are so reborn) besides the widows, and those
who practice self-denial. Those who are kept in slavery suffer the most. They endure
terrors and constant threats, but the Lord has given grace to many of his handmaidens,
for even though they are forbidden to do so, still they resolutely follow his example.
So it is that even if I should wish to separate from them in order to go to Britain,
and most willingly was I prepared to go to my homeland and kinsfolk-- and not only
there, but as far as Gaul to visit the brethren there, so that I might see the faces
of the holy ones of my Lord, God knows how strongly I desired this-- I am bound by
the Spirit, who witnessed to me that if I did so he would mark me out as guilty,
and I fear to waste the labour that I began, and not I, but Christ the Lord, who
commanded me to come to be with them for the rest of my life, if the Lord shall will
it and shield me from every evil, so that I may not sin before him.
So I hope that I did as I ought, but I do not trust myself as long as I am in this
mortal body, for he is strong who strives daily to turn me away from the faith and
true holiness to which I aspire until the end of my life for Christ my Lord, but
the hostile flesh is always dragging one down to death, that is, to unlawful attractions.
And I know in part why I did not lead a perfect life like other believers, but I
confess to my Lord and do not blush in his sight, because I am not lying; from the
time when I came to know him in my youth, the love of God and fear of him increased
in me, and right up until now, by God's favour, I have kept the faith.
What is more, let anyone laugh and taunt if he so wishes. I am not keeping silent,
nor am I hiding the signs and wonders that were shown to me by the Lord many years
before they happened, who knew everything, even before the beginning of time.
Thus, I should give thanks unceasingly to God, who frequently forgave my folly and
my negligence, in more than one instance so as not to be violently angry with me,
who am placed as his helper, and I did not easily assent to what had been revealed
to me, as the Spirit was urging; and the Lord took pity on me thousands upon thousands
of times, because he saw within me that I was prepared, but that I was ignorant of
what to do in view of my situation; because many were trying to prevent this mission.
They were talking among themselves behind my back, and saying: "Why is this
fellow throwing himself into danger among enemies who know not God?" Not from
malice, but having no liking for it; likewise, as I myself can testify, they perceived
my rusticity. And I was not quick to recognize the grace that was then in me; I now
know that I should have done so earlier.
Now I have put it frankly to my brethren and co-workers, who have believed me because
of what I have foretold and still foretell to strengthen and reinforce your faith.
I wish only that you, too, would make greater and better efforts. This will be my
pride, for "a wise son makes a proud father [Proverbs
10:1; 15:20]."
You know, as God does, how I went about among you from my youth in the faith of truth
and in sincerity of heart. As well as to the heathen among whom I live, I have shown
them trust and always show them trust. God knows I did not cheat any one of them,
nor consider it, for the sake of God and his Church, lest I arouse them and [cause]
persecution for them and for all of us, and lest the Lord's name be blasphemed because
of me, for it is written: "Woe to the men through whom the name of the Lord
is blasphemed."
For even though I am ignorant in all things, nevertheless I attempted to safeguard
some and myself also. And I gave back again to my Christian brethren and the virgins
of Christ and the holy women the small unasked for gifts that they used to give me
or some of their ornaments which they used to throw on the altar. And they would
be offended with me because I did this. But in the hope of eternity, I safeguarded
myself carefully in all things, so that they might not cheat me of my office of service
on any pretext of dishonesty, and so that I should not in the smallest way provide
any occasion for defamation or disparagement on the part of unbelievers.
What is more, when I baptized so many thousands of people, did I hope for even half
a jot from any of them? Tell me, and I will give it back to you. And when the Lord
ordained clergy everywhere by my humble means, and I freely conferred office on them,
if I asked any of them anywhere even for the price of one shoe, say so to my face
and I will give it back.
More, I spent for you so that they would receive me. And I went about among you,
and everywhere for your sake, in danger, and as far as the outermost regions beyond
which no one lived, and where no one had ever penetrated before, to baptize or to
ordain clergy or to confirm people. Conscientiously and gladly I did all this work
by God's gift for your salvation.
From time to time I gave rewards to the kings, as well as making payments to their
sons who travel with me; notwithstanding which, they seized me with my companions,
and that day most avidly desired to kill me. But my time had not yet come. They plundered
everything they found on us anyway, and fettered me in irons; and on the fourteenth
day the Lord freed me from their power, and whatever they had of ours was given back
to us for the sake of God on account of the indispensable friends whom we had made
before.
Also you know from experience how much I was paying to those who were administering
justice in all the regions, which I visited often. I estimate truly that I distributed
to them not less than the price of fifteen men, in order that you should enjoy my
company and I enjoy yours, always, in God. I do not regret this nor do I regard it
as enough. I am paying out still and I shall pay out more. The Lord has the power
to grant me that I may soon spend my own self, for your souls.
Behold, I call on God as my witness upon my soul that I am not lying; nor would I
write to you for it to be an occasion for flattery or selfishness, nor hoping for
honour from any one of you. Sufficient is the honour which is not yet seen, but in
which the heart has confidence. He who made the promise is faithful; he never lies.
But I see that even here and now, I have been exalted beyond measure by the Lord,
and I was not worthy that he should grant me this, while I know most certainly that
poverty and failure suit me better than wealth and delight (but Christ the Lord was
poor for our sakes; I certainly am wretched and unfortunate; even if I wanted wealth
I have no resources, nor is it my own estimation of myself, for daily I expect to
be murdered or betrayed or reduced to slavery if the occasion arises. But I fear
nothing, because of the promises of Heaven; for I have cast myself into the hands
of Almighty God, who reigns everywhere. As the prophet says: "Cast your burden
on the Lord and he will sustain you [Psalm 55:22]."
Behold now I commend my soul to God who is most faithful and for whom I perform my
mission in obscurity, but he is no respecter of persons and he chose me for this
service that I might be one of the least of his ministers.
For which reason I should make return for all that he returns me. But what should
I say, or what should I promise to my Lord, for I, alone, can do nothing unless he
himself vouchsafe it to me. But let him search my heart and nature, for I crave enough
for it, even too much, and I am ready for him to grant me that I drink of his chalice,
as he has granted to others who love him.
Therefore may it never befall me to be separated by my God from his people whom he
has won in this most remote land. I pray God that he gives me perseverance, and that
he will deign that I should be a faithful witness for his sake right up to the time
of my passing.
And if at any time I managed anything of good for the sake of my God whom I love,
I beg of him that he grant it to me to shed my blood for his name with proselytes
and captives, even should I be left unburied, or even were my wretched body to be
torn limb from limb by dogs or savage beasts, or were it to be devoured by the birds
of the air, I think, most surely, were this to have happened to me, I had saved both
my soul and my body. For beyond any doubt on that day we shall rise again in the
brightness of the sun, that is, in the glory of Christ Jesus our Redeemer, as children
of the living God and co-heirs of Christ, made in his image; for we shall reign through
him and for him and in him.
For the sun we see rises each day for us at [his] command, but it will never reign,
neither will its splendor last, but all who worship it will come wretchedly to punishment.
We, on the other hand, shall not die, who believe in and worship the true sun, Christ,
who will never die, no more shall he die who has done Christ's will, but will abide
for ever just as Christ abides for ever, who reigns with God the Father Almighty
and with the Holy Spirit before the beginning of time and now and for ever and ever.
Amen.
Behold over and over again I would briefly set out the words of my confession. I
testify in truthfulness and gladness of heart before God and his holy angels that
I never had any reason, except the Gospel and his promises, ever to have returned
to that nation from which I had previously escaped with difficulty.
But I entreat those who believe in and fear God, whoever deigns to examine or receive
this document composed by the obviously unlearned sinner Patrick in Hibernia, that
nobody shall ever ascribe to my ignorance any trivial thing that I achieved or may
have expounded that was pleasing to God, but accept and truly believe that it would
have been the gift of God. And this is my confession before I die.
The End
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